I went back to school yesterday...after a 2 month-long "hiatus". And for those who keep on telling me that i at least have holidays... i still have to work everyday! Holidays is what full-time students have. Poks...
Anyway i'm now studying Math. Have i ever told you i've always loathed math? Well if i haven't, now you know. There was a reason why, the moment i finished my O-Levels, i said i wanted to go to Mass Comm you know! What more, after 7 years of not studying math, here i am doing math again. Arghhh!!! I ask myself though, do i loathe it because i simply don't like it? Or knowing how much time and energy it will take out of me? I was seriously lost in yesterday's lecture (the lecturer was seriously in his own world)! At that point of time i knew that this module was going to take a lot out of me. I've got classes 4 times a week...every week! And classes on Saturday are like 4 - 5 hours long...of just Math. Add to that the time needed to revise on my own; there's barely any time to find with everything else going on! Honestly... i'm not really looking forward to all those draining moments. But the lessons of past have not been forgotten! As i was on my way back reflecting, the Lord reminded me that having Him in my life really made the difference. No matter the hard moments, no matter the awfully frustrating moments, it all dims when put under the light that God gave us through His Son on the cross. It gave us hope! It gave us security! It gave us eternal life! It brightens up everything when you look at it that way! And it really brightened up my perspective as i thanked God that i could go through this module knowing that i can trust Him in all outcomes as i obey Him, knowing that this is another part of His plan for me in the long run. Sometimes i spend so much time bothered about the difficulties, that its easy to forget that they're just minor matters when placed in comparison with God's promises and His unchanging character. He never said that life would be easy. Besides, there are so many other difficulties & sufferings that others face that are of a different scale! I'm sorry i know this post is long... but it's just joyous being able to express His truth in my own words!
The hard work's not going to go away. The sleepless nights shall return. The last time round, i retreated into my cocoon. This time round, i pray that i may cling to the Cross. Time will tell whether i've learned the lessons from past. I sure hope i shan't be like the Israelites who forgot God's gracious providence really quickly after He delivered them from Pharaoh. May the wonderful deeds of the Lord in my life not be forgotten.
Psalm 9:1 "I will give thanks to the Lord with my whole heart; i will recount all of your wonderful deeds"
And may i glorify God through all that comes...
2 Cor 12:9 "My grace is sufficient, for my power is made perfect in weakness." To Him & His truths i shall cling on to as i dive into this module!
P.S. The Lord's been really gracious! Despite my retreating away from Him during the difficult Oct - Dec period, despite my unfaithfulness He still enabled me to do well for my first module (Chemistry!). I got an A! Honestly, i couldn't believe it... the result i got was purely a result of the Lord's hand working in some way. Thank You, Lord!
Psalm 34:8 "O taste and see that the Lord is good! Blessed is he who takes refuge in Him!"
Ramble!
Ranald Joseph
Bedok Lutheran Church.
Admin Asst.
Salt N' Pepper Youth Ministry
Aspiring (but not very successful) Cricketer + Sports Scientist
To Be A Servant Of Our Lord